What is my life

I'm Kaira, I'm 25 years old and I'm getting my life together.

These lyrics seem to be embedded in my brain now.

I won’t lie about what I did
I cut her head off and threw it in a ditch
Why I only kept the body was a logical choice
I threw away the head because I hated the sound of her voice

Correct me if I’m wrong

But there seems to be a hole in me that I can’t seem to fill with anyone.

Look into my eyes and know that I can see right through you.
I’ll erase you from the thoughts and tongues of everyone you know.
Even if you apologized to me right now it would mean nothing.
Cry to me and beg for mercy all you want, you’re fucking dead.

I am your pain and heartache.
I am your up at night.
I am everything you hate about your fucking life.
I am your nervous breakdown.
I am crushed hopes and dreams.
I am the life inside you, dying on its fucking knees.

I would rather see the sadness in your eyes,

As I let you die.
Save your apologies unless you’re on your knees.
No need to beg and plea.

I find you fucking disgusting
Drama from the drama hating drama queen
Time to suck today’s dick
I hope you choke on it
I hope you choke on it
You spread disease when you spread your legs
Time to suck today’s dick
I hope you choke on it

You are the plague, you’re filled with disease and you ruin lives
You are the plague, get down on your knees and fucking die
I have come to do the Devil’s work
No one is here to forgive you for your sins

There is no light.
There is only the dark.

I welcome death with open arms.

We all come from broken homes, broken hearts and broken bones
We will live and die alone, we will live and die alone
Welcome to the end, tonight we will descend

And it’s all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It’s a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole
Through everyone that feels it

Well you’re never gonna find it
If you’re looking for it
Won’t come your way yeah
Well you’ll never find it
If you’re looking for it

Should’ve done something
But I’ve done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

And you never would have thought in the end
How amazing it feels just to live again
It’s a feeling that you cannot miss
It burns a hole through everyone that feels it

Well you’re never gonna find it
If you’re looking for it
Won’t come your way yeah
Well you’ll never find it
If you’re looking for it

Should’ve done something
But I’ve done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste my time with you

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying “Lord I just don’t care”
But you’ve got the love I need
To see me through

Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you’ve got the love I need to see me through

When food is gone you are my daily meal
When friends are gone I know my saviour’s love is real
Your love is real

You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love

Time after time I think “Oh Lord what’s the use?”
Time after time I think it’s just no good
Sooner or later in life, the things you love you loose
But you got the love I need to see me through

You got the love

Through the worst weather.
I’ll make sure we’re together.
When the sky begins to hail,
We will prevail.

Even if it rains, and the sun won’t shine, sun won’t shine.
Whatever the weather you’ll be mine, you’ll be mine.
Let’s watch the rain fall
And wash away our innocence.
In the clouds
I hear the chorus sing.
Hallelujah…

And I’d give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be

I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live
Then what’s the point of living life if it just contradicts?

I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past I’m praying feet don’t fail me now